Google Earth

Yesterday night, in front of my laptop, i suddenly had no idea what to do. i refreshed my hotmail a dozen times, but it wasn’t there. i had been waiting for over 48 hours.

i stared at the icons on my desktop, but nothing caught my interest. i clicked the start button and then point to all programs. then my mouse stopped at google earth.

i haven’t really explored it since i installed it. but yesterday night, i finally found a reason to.

i clicked around, moved the earth up and down, left and right. i went to the cities of busan, seoul, daegu, north korea, nagoya, kyoto, hokkaido. i visited temples, mountains, shrines, train stations, volcanoes, colourful flower fields, ports and imperial palace. i saw amazing views, clouds so close you can actually touch them, penguins under water, a snow-covered post office, and the misty sight of a volcano in the distance.

i finally know what Lee, my south korean friend’s hometown, busan, look like.

suddenly the world doesn’t look tat bleak and boring anymore.

in contrast, the world looked so beautiful and so mysterious to me yesterday nite.

i wonder if i will ever be able to see all those pretty sights with my own eyes.

i think i found a new reason to live.     

 

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i wonder where do people and animals go when they die…

i hope it’s somewhere beautiful.

Scars on me

About a week ago, I fell down while I was walking my dog, Tommy. It was  my fault, really, because I was a bit distracted that time. After some tail-yanking, growling and pain, I got up and continued the walk with bloody knees. Then I got home and put on some Hansaplast on top of the bruises. 

They are still on my knees now, those plasters, only that they have morphed into no-brand ones, not so miraculously. I still felt pain now and then, especially when I woke up in the morning*ahem* afternoon. I try hard not to let water get into them when I bath.

The wounds have changed into ugly “shell –like” things. I was convinced that there will be scars on my knees from now on. Big,ugly, brownish ones.

But then, the scars started to come off when I poked at them. Big, ugly, brownish scars came off, revealing perfectly fine, untainted skin underneath.

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Does it sound familiar to you? It is a bit like life, isn’t it…you fell down hard, complete with bruises, pain and scars. You thought that you will never recover, that you will be scarred for life.

But then, after some time, nature took off the scars you had, revealing beautiful skin underneath, even more beautiful than the one you had previously, only if you care to “poke” at them. If you never make an effort, you will never find out that those scars are actually shells that are there to protect your wounds, so that they will be able to recover in due time.

You have become a more beautiful person because of all the scars you once had.

That’s what I thought when I look at my scars just now.

 

p/s If you didn’t notice, I’ve changed the look of my blog!

       Do you like it?

Renovation in progress

 

Watch this space ;)

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The funny thing about us

“(Human beings’ funniest characteristic is) our contradictoriness. We are in such a hurry to grow up, and then we long for our lost childhood. We make ourselves ill earning money, and then spend all our money on getting well again. We think so much about the future that we neglect the present, and thus experience neither the present nor the future. We live as if we are never going to die, and die as if we never lived.”

An excerpt from Paulo Coelho’s Like the Flowing River.

Just wanna share this with everyone because it’s worth thinking about.

Tomodachis

They say that friends are your greatest treasures. I am so glad I have you.

I love you, my friends :)

Soul Mates

Do soulmates exist?

Are there really someone in this world that are meant to be just for you?

What about the theory that soulmates are a part of yourself that have been separated from you before you were born, and whom you spend your entire life searching for? What about it that makes you want to believe in it?

How about the Japanese tale which suggests that you are connected to your soulmate by an invisible red thread around your pinky finger?

How do you recognize him when you meet him?

What if you never bump into her for the rest of your lives?

What happens then?

Do soulmates exist?

Do you believe in them?

When the mood comes, the photos come

I am bored…i am bored..i am bored…i am so bored!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Somebody please suggest something for me to do…aside from cleaning, washing, watching dramas or animes or movies, playing the sims, trying to beat the boss from FFX, staring into space, staring into my laptop or reading books…

I’ve tried those (albeit a little unwillingly for the cleaning and washing part)..but i’m still bored..

Here are some random pics from my Japan trip:

futons are incredibly comfortable after a long day walking

this is for u, sano V

beautiful sakura…

see, i told you i saw cats hugging..

like owner, like dogs

green tea ice cream, yum yum!

Credit: These photos are courtesy of my sis :)

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You are my punch bag

During my time in the US, I kept a diary so that I could write down all the things that I experienced there. My roommate Jia Jia had a diary too, and she wrote in it everyday without fail. But it was hard for me to follow her. I found it taxing to write down every little thing that happened during the day.

Funny, but my mood to write only came when I was lonely or sad or afraid or angry or (put down every negative emotions that humans ever had). In the end, my diary was choke full of negative feelings and experiences, with only a few positive ones. Maybe it was like a punch bag for me, an outlet of some sorts, my unfortunate little diary.

But it really helped me though. My bad feelings “go away” after I wrote them down.

Maybe that is why I don’t like to write down good feelings and positive memories. I was afraid that they will “go away” too.

My diary should have been the one named “a puppy’s woes”, not my blog :).

When I read back what I had wrote back then, I am glad that I had overcame those feelings now. I definitely grew stronger in the process. And I am glad that I have that process all written down in my unfortunate little punch bag.

A Game of Tag

Tagged by yiyi again…haha. This is different from the previous one (reader: did u even finish the previous 100 questions?) Me:errr….

1. Besides your lips, where is the favourite spot to get kissed?          Wah…first question supposed to be warm-up first but this is…so not warm-up. Forehead?

2. How did you feel when you woke up this morning?                            Dizzy…no idea what was happening when Dad woke me up from my exciting dream to say it’s time for lunch

3. Who was the last person/people you took a photo with?               Jason, inside the korean bbq restaurant

4. Would you consider yourself spoiled?                                                     Definitely not…haha

5. Will you ever donate blood?                                                                               If i ever reach the minimum weight required, i might consider it…

6. Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex?      Most of my best friends are of the opposite sex…guys are easier to deal with, i suppose..

7. Do you want someone to be dead?                                                                Yes, those really evil characters from TVB dramas who always frame the innocent ones..made my blood boil just watching them

8. What does your last text message says?                                                 Let me check…it was a “ 啊？”from orang utan..haha..

9. What are you thinking right now?                                                                   I think my dog has ear infection..worried…dunno can send him to the vet or not…

10. Do you want someone to be with you right now?                              Erm…couldn’t think of anyone..i supposed not..i’m happy by myself

11. What was the time you went to bed last night?                             What’s up with the constant preoccupation with this kind of questions in tags like this….around 5 to 6 am i think

12. Where did you buy the tee you are wearing now?                              Oh..this one? Hmm…some shopping mall in KL..couldn’t remember exactly

13. Is someone on your mind right now?                                                    Yes…the vet…can you come to my home right now?

14. Who was the last person(s) who text you?                                      Orang utan…who asked me a very strange question..haha

I guess i need to choose 10 persons here…hmm..this is weird…and awkward..here goes

{Amanda, Kee Li, Jason, Snow T, yiyi, JunJun, Hongaun, Jovinho,  Lee, Eddie my oppa} This does not mean i tagged u or anything, it’s just for the sake of answering…

15. Who is no.3 having a relationship with?                                                       I wish i know…haha

16. Is no.2 a male or a female?                                                                      Kee Li, are u male or female ah? haha..of coz female le..

17. If no.4 and no.1 get together, would it be good?                             Could not even imagine that…one is my sister..the other one is like my sister…sisterly love?

18.What is no.10 studying about?                                                             Oppa? Becoming a chef..hehe

19. When was the last time you chatted with them?                                Lazy to list down one by one…

20. Is no.4 single?                                                                                                 Nope..

21. Say something about no.2?                                                                          My best friend in college, loves makeup, bikini, chattin in MSN and listening to music while working….lol…

22. What do you think about no.7 & no.8 being together?                      who is no.7 and no.8…opps…omg…LOL!!

23. Describe no.9                                                                                                  He is my “brother-in-law”…he wants me to go to Korea next year to marry his brother who is in the army..my first close Korean friend…aiming to be the world’s best chef…:)

24. What will you do if no.5 n no.7 fight?                                                         Sit back and watch?…haha…they don’t even know each other!

25.  Do you like no.1?                                                                                            Do I like my own sister? Wat do you think?

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On Learning

Life sucks when you don’t have any purpose…hanging around everyday, wondering what are u going to do today, ending up doing the same thing as yesterday.

I thrive when u give me a purpose because then i know that i am not wasting my life away, one day at a time. That’s why i have taken up learning all by my own initiative. Learning Japanese, that is.

Back in school, I didn’t have much problems with grades simply because i love learning. Even though u won’t find me reading textbooks when there’s no exams (unlike my younger sis), i wouldn’t be too unhappy either when i need to study for exams. In fact, it gave me a certain kind of joy because it was like discovering something new about a subject, a language or the world.

Yes, sometimes i hated it, it was tiring, need to memorize so many things in so little time blablablaaa….but tat feeling of achievement that i got at the end of the day…satisfied me.

And I became a happy person. 

Memories & Hope

 

As long as we have memories, yesterday remains

As long as we have hope, tomorrow awaits

Such beautiful words…

100 Questions and Answers – Part 3

I kind of regretted posting my tag here…because updating my blog with all those parts is not as fun as I thought..it became quite a chore…blame my lazy side..

The next part…

40. Which store would you choose to max out your credit card?
Any store with cheap clothes, Walmart or MPH Bookstore! I will buy lots and lots of books that I never read.

41. What time is bed time?
Recently? 4 to 5 am.

42. Have you ever been in a beauty pageant?
Nope..i don't think i will qualify

43. How many tattoos do you have?
None. I like clean skin.

44. If you don't have any, would you think of getting one?
I don't think so.

45. What did you do for your last birthday?
Went out with roomates to celebrate in Pizza Hut. Before that, had a really funny stage rehearsal for my Performing Arts play....with wigs and stuff..wink wink Kenny.

46. Do you carry a donor card?
No...but i think people who do are cool.

47. Who was the last person you ate dinner with?
My family la..who else

48. Is the glass half-empty or half-full?
Half-full!

49. What's the farthest away place that you have been?
USA. It didn't feel tattt far..

50. When's the last time you ate a home-grown tomatoes?
I don't eat tomato on its own. My family don't grow tomatoes either.

51. Have you ever won a trophy?
Nope :( I sucked at sports.

52. Are you a good cook?
Sometimes...i cooked for myself when I was in the US..although only simple meals

53. Do you know how to pump your own gas?
Never tried before..don't get to use the car that much :(

54. If you could meet any one person (from history or currently alive), who would it be?
My soulmate...haha

55. Have you ever had to wear a uniform to school?
Definitely. But I wished it looked nicer..

56. Do you touch-type?
You mean on the keyboard? Yes...getting better..

57. What's under your bed?
Dust, dust and more dust

58. Do you believe in love at first sight?
I think it can happen, but not to me.

59. Think fast, what do you like right now?
Erm....dramas?

100 Questions and Answers – Part 2

As promised, here are the remaining questions…actually, i answered all of them in facebook ad…but since i promised, well…(reader: nobody is reading ur stupid questions so dont bother) well, reader..i’m a person who keeps her promises! i don’t care wat u say!

Here goes…

21. Do you like to dance?
Yeah...i used to dance during my high school..it was fun

22. Would you ever consider living abroad?
I am seriously considering this actually...

23. Does your name make any interesting anagrams?
Yes, it does! But it's in cantonese...figure it urself haha..but i will give u a hint -> use my full name

24. Who made the last incoming call on your phone?
Wait, let me check. It's my dad calling to remind me to take back the clothes hanging outside coz it’s raining…

25. What is the last thing you downloaded onto your computer?
Some brochure from some colleges that i plan to go to.

26. Last time you swam in a pool?
Mark brought me and chea chea (Jia Jia) to the homestead's indoor pool at nite...and we swam away secretly..until a guard discovered us and kicked us out!

27. Type of music you like most?
Music that invokes some kind of feelings in me

28. Type of music you dislike most?
Annoying ones

29. Are you listening to music right now?
Nope

30. What colour is your bedroom carpet?
My bedroom doesn't have carpetss

31. If you could change something about your home, without worrying about expense or mess, what would you do?
I will turn my bedroom into one of those bilik contoh from magazines, add a room filled with only books, couch and piano and add a swimming pool in the garden!

32. What was the last thing you bought?
Central Pahang bus ticket from KL to Bentong =.=" Damn expensive too

33. Have you ever ridden on a motorbike?
Yes...but it was a long long time ago. i’m always having difficulties breathing when i’m in the back seat of someone driving fast…i can’t stand the wind slamming into my face

34. Would you go bungee-jumping or sky-diving?
I don't know...i don't even dare to ride genting's skyshot (is tat wat it is called?)

35. Do you have a garden?
Yes, in my house. But it's full of dog shit..haha

36. Do you really know all the words to your national anthem?
Of coz! Being singing it for over 13 years of my school life. Oh wait...i tried just now but i got stuck in the middle...aiks

37. What is the first thing you think of when you wake up in the morning?
"Oh, it's afternoon already? Time for lunch!"

38. If you could eat lunch with one famous person, who would it be?
Matsumoto Jun or Hideaki Takizawa. I wouldn't even touch my lunch coz I will be too busy staring at them..haha

39. Who sent the last text message you received?
Hotlink Gift

 

Note: If u see some differences between the answers here and the one in my facebook, it’s because i have updated them since i only posted it here now ^.^

Enjoy reading…..

100 Questions and Answers

I saw this in yiyi’s facebook and thought that I’d try it for fun :-)

It’s gonna fill up the whole page.

1.Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, and find line 4.

(I said a silent prayer that Marley)… had inherited his mother’s disposition. – from Marley & Me. I’m only at page 7.

2. Stretch your left arm out as far as you can, what can you touch?

NEC’s chinese booklet that i dun understand =.=”

3.Before you started this survey, what were you doing?

erm…reading yiyi’s notes in facebook….haha

4. What is the last thing you watched on TV?

TV is not really my thing now, even though i got astro…but the day b4 yesterday i watched “100 Greatest Songs from the 90s”. Nice…i missed 90s songs…

5. Without looking, guess what time is it

Easy…my bro just got back from work, so it must be 5.15pm now?

6. Now look at the clock.  What is the actual time?

5.17pm…wooohoo..i’m good!

7. With the exception of computer, what can you hear?

The fan lo…which is a must these days!

8. When did you last step outside? What were you doing?

Yesterday…i went back to Kajang to collect my offer letter and met up with friends and went to Mid Valley!

9. Did you dream last night?

I must have…but i don’t remember. Woke up at 2pm with a lot of sweat on my back..

10. Do you remember your dreams?

Sometimes…i tried really hard to if i know it’s a good dream.

11. When did you last laugh?

Yesterday…had a great time..

12. Do you remember why/at what?

Well, it was reli fun meeting up with Jason, ah Bu, Kenny..whom I haven’t seen in a long time...laughed at every other sentence..

13. What is on the walls of the room you are in?

Let’s c…a few chinese proverbs scrolls, Jolin’s poster, Australia’s flag, a chinese bamboo drawing and a jigsaw puzzle of 2 kids kissing..hehe

14. Seen anything weird lately?

Yesterday i talk to a man who was sitting next to me in the bus. He worked in Bentong Prison and told me some weird things…like sexual harassments between male prisoners..

15. What do you think of this quiz?

It was fun…make me think of things i otherwise would not think of..

16. What is the last film you saw?

Film, not drama?…well, i couldn’t rmb if it’s Taiwan’s The Most Distant Course or Japan’s Romeo + Juliet..

17. If you could live anywhere in the world, where would you live?

Japan, no doubt! i’m planning on it…now..1st thing i need to do is kidnap a Japanese man and force him to marry me..wahahaha

18. If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy?

lots of things…but first i will sign up for Japan studies program in a Japan university…

19. Tell me something about you that most people don’t know.

Ok…i don’t eat fruits..but i guess most ppl know that. Erm, i don’t update my blog that much? (reader: everybody know tat laa)..okok…when i’m in the US, i only took showers once in 3 days and changed my clothes once a week…i bet nobody knew tat! (reader: disgusting!!!)

20. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?

I will make the world a better place to live for animals. There will be NO stray dogs or cats in the streets anywhere in the world and every dog and cat will have a loving home, be respected and treated with the love that they truly deserve. Everybody will love animals.

[Due to the extremely loonggg nature of this blog post, it will be divided into installments of 20 questions each (one installment/part per day). This way, i could have 5 days of fun!]

End of blog post.

Life Lessons No#4132

I have been trying hard for the last few hours to update my Nokia 6120 classic with a software called Nokia Software Updater. Why? Because I got nothing better to do.

I followed all the instructions carefully. Nothing left out.

They asked me to back up my phone contents first, so I did.

Download update files – finished. Then the update process started. The progress bar was moving and below that it says “estimated time left – 15 minutes”. So, I sit back in my chair happily and continue watching Nodame Cantabile Special Episode.  

2 hours passed. Estimated time left – 15 minutes.

3 hours of Nodame Cantabile later (i had to wait for the thing to load!), Estimated time left – 15 minutes.

Was tempted to pull off the USB cable and start all over again but a sentence caught my eye.

DO NOT DISCONNECT YOUR PHONE DURING UPDATE PROCESS. DOING SO WILL CAUSE SEVERE DAMAGE TO YOUR PHONE AND IT MAY NOT WORK FOREVER AGAIN. YOU MAY NEED TO BEG YOUR DAD FOR A NEW PHONE.

Below that is another sentence:

DO NOT USE YOUR PHONE DURING THE UPDATING PROCESS (EVEN DURING EMERGENCIES). DOING SO WILL HAVE THE SAME EFFECT AS ABOVE.

Well, any English-literate person who love their phone enough will follow the instructions on the screen. So I waited obediently for a few hours more. And in the process, ignored someone’s sms and terminated a phone call from a friend I haven’t heard from in a vr long time. Sorry Ah Bu~

It’s almost 12am now. And I am still waiting. Even though my phone is seemingly working like normal, the fear that plugging the cables will reduce it to a useless phone is too big.

Searching the internet for any possible solutions, I found these. Stories upon horror stories of how interrupting the update process have ruined other people’s Nokia phones and their lives.

No good.

So I plan on waiting till my bedtime.

Half a day of unnecessary kan-cheongness and waiting, gone just like tat. Life is too short for this.

Moral of my story? DO NOT UPDATE your phone software if your phone is from Nokia. Save yourself some peace of mind. There are better things to do.

Signs of growing up

I bought a new handbag today. My first ever handbag. I have never owned a handbag as far as I can remember. Handbags have always been too girly or womanly for me. I prefer backpacks, sling bags or just about any other bags except handbags.

Is this a sign that I have finally grown up? But I only wanted a handbag because I dun wan to be lugging a heavy backpack all around NY. And now when it is sitting on my hostel room bed, it kind of look pretty. I may kind of like it after all..ok, i admit..i love it ^.^

Happy Belated Valentine's Day

just felt like posting this picture that i found on the net...i dun have chance to do so on V-day itself because i was so damn tired from work. btw, we had 400+ guests that night, even more than christmas' eve and new year's eve!

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and Happy Belated Birthday to Jiao Jiao, Nan Cen and Ah Bu!! Sorry, I didn't wish you guys earlier..

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A friend said this to me a couple of weeks ago:

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"The right person is hard to come by, but when he finally arrives, it's going to be brilliant! When that time comes, never ever let him go"

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It stayed with me until today :)

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But, why is he taking so long? :-(

So Ironic...

A flow of events happened yesterday that ended up in something that's so ironic I have to write it down. Please don't mind my deteriorating english k. Come to think of it, that's ironic too. I'm in USA, an English-speaking nation, so my English should have improved right? Hmm..

Yesterday, I was at the Chamber of Commerce to go online. Then Lee, my Korean friend suddenly rushed in and whisked me away to the bank before i even have time to even say "brb" to my sister who i was chatting with. He mistakenly made a double charge of USD 200 to his check card when he was paying his internet bill. So, he needed my help to cancel the transaction at the bank.

But the bank asked us to call TDS, the internet provider. So, we went back to his room to call them. After waiting on the phone for 30 minutes, they asked us to go back to the bank to stop the transaction. Anyway, when I was in his room, he gave me a tealight candle and some matches as a gift. He even cooked dinner for me to thank me :)

After dinner, I went back to my room happy. It was raining very very heavily outside and the wind was making a very scary sound. Then it happened. Total blackout. Not even 5 minutes had passed after I went back to my room, the lights went out and it was pitch black everywhere. Then I suddenly remembered. I've got a candle, the one that Lee gave to me earlier! So, I ended up having light after all. Imagine what would have happened if Lee didn't give me that candle. I don't know how I would have survived through that night.

Did Lee actually know that there will be a blackout that night? Hmm..

A White World

It is snowing very heavily now outside the Chamber of Commerce where I am going online. I love the snow....they looked so beautiful. I hope it is still snowing when I get back later because I want to know what it feels like to walk in the snow. But I hope it won't be too cold.

Days are long here. Everyday I wake up wondering what to do for the rest of the day. It is easier when I have work but when I'm off, I end up having to spend all day in my room. I know I should make more friends :(

I love mornings better than nights. But it gets dark very very fast. By 5.30pm, the sun has already gone down. If I'm in Malaysia, that would be the usual time I take my naughty dogs out for walks. How different things are on different sides of the earth...

My good day

It's freezing cold here...but the funny thing is, the sun's still shining and there's just a little snow...i mean, there should be a whole lot blanket of snow if the temperature is -20 Celcius right? I just don't get the weather here...

Days are beginning to get better...I have reached a little milestone in my journey to become a better person...just getting a tad more comfortable in my own skin...i didn't know it can feel so good :-)

You know those days when you felt like good things could never really come your way...but you keep on holding on anyway...and then one day, suddenly u find that things are not so bad after all...i had that day yesterday :-)

I'm getting a bit better in skiing and i'm longing to get a pan so thatI can cook here...