counting down the days

everything must come to an end, and the end is just another beginning.

to signify that you have moved on, you cut ties with the past.

you convinced yourself that you are ready to face the end and you are not going to look back.

you are different from who you used to be.

a new wardrobe.

a new haircut.

new shoes.

a new attitude.

a new you, to face a new beginning.

Google Earth

Yesterday night, in front of my laptop, i suddenly had no idea what to do. i refreshed my hotmail a dozen times, but it wasn’t there. i had been waiting for over 48 hours.

i stared at the icons on my desktop, but nothing caught my interest. i clicked the start button and then point to all programs. then my mouse stopped at google earth.

i haven’t really explored it since i installed it. but yesterday night, i finally found a reason to.

i clicked around, moved the earth up and down, left and right. i went to the cities of busan, seoul, daegu, north korea, nagoya, kyoto, hokkaido. i visited temples, mountains, shrines, train stations, volcanoes, colourful flower fields, ports and imperial palace. i saw amazing views, clouds so close you can actually touch them, penguins under water, a snow-covered post office, and the misty sight of a volcano in the distance.

i finally know what Lee, my south korean friend’s hometown, busan, look like.

suddenly the world doesn’t look tat bleak and boring anymore.

in contrast, the world looked so beautiful and so mysterious to me yesterday nite.

i wonder if i will ever be able to see all those pretty sights with my own eyes.

i think i found a new reason to live.     

 

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i wonder where do people and animals go when they die…

i hope it’s somewhere beautiful.

Memories & Hope

 

As long as we have memories, yesterday remains

As long as we have hope, tomorrow awaits

Such beautiful words…

Ordinary Miracle

It's not that unusual
When everything is beautiful
The sky knows when it's time to snow
Don't need to teach a seed to grow

Life is like a gift, they say
Wrapped up for you everyday
Open up, and find a way
To give some of your own
.
Isn't it remarkable?
Like everytime a raindrop falls
It's just another
Ordinary miracle today

The birds in winter have their fling
And always make it home by spring

When you wake up everyday
please don't throw your dreams away,
hold them close to your heart
'cause we are all a part of the ordinary miracle

It seems so exceptional
That things work out after all

The sun comes out and shines so bright
And disappears again at night

Do you want to see a miracle...look at you at the mirror

It's just another ordinary miracle today

Ordinary Miracle by Sarah Mclachlan

Walking Behind You

You know everything that I am afraid of

You do everything I wish I did

Everybody wants you, everybody loves you

And I'm just walking behind you...

A White World

It is snowing very heavily now outside the Chamber of Commerce where I am going online. I love the snow....they looked so beautiful. I hope it is still snowing when I get back later because I want to know what it feels like to walk in the snow. But I hope it won't be too cold.

Days are long here. Everyday I wake up wondering what to do for the rest of the day. It is easier when I have work but when I'm off, I end up having to spend all day in my room. I know I should make more friends :(

I love mornings better than nights. But it gets dark very very fast. By 5.30pm, the sun has already gone down. If I'm in Malaysia, that would be the usual time I take my naughty dogs out for walks. How different things are on different sides of the earth...

Happy Birthday Jason Yap Chee Keng!

Don't say I didnt give anything to you....I took 2 hours to make this ok...See, u have so many good qualities...that's why I'm so happy to have you as my big sister!

Wish u had a great birthday this year! Cheer up...don't always be depressed...it's no good for your health, old man ;-)

Can you be that someone to me?

Just now, i had a look at my friendster's horoscope for fun...and it turned out to be one of the most accurate horoscope i have ever seen! It was incredible...everything tat it says there is exactly what i'm experiencing right now.

Virgo (Aug 23 - Sep 22)

The Bottom Line
Your healthy ambition has been feeling sickly lately, but it's back on track now.

In Detail
Your formerly healthy ambition has been feeling a bit sickly lately, but when you get a little taste of power today you will finally start to feel robust and capable once again. You can see where you want things to go, and with a little patience you will see a path to take to get there. Your sense of who you are is going to continue to grow slowly but steadily, and you are already starting to see the rewards of being more self assured in your social life.

Today must be my lucky day!

The truth is, since I've got so much free time here, I have a lot of time to think and to learn more about myself. But it was not easy. I found lots of bad things about myself that I wish I didn't have. Sometimes, I found myself hating my own reflection in the mirror. But on other days, I love it. It was frustating but I'm going to give it time. I'm going to get there eventually.

I miss my family and friends terribly. I still have 2 more months to go before I go back home to Malaysia. It feels very long. It's not that I'm not enjoying my time over here. I do, I love it here. But I miss having someone who understands me and whom I can feel totally comfortable with. Someone like my family. Someone like my college friends. I realised that that someone does not come by easily. That's why I feel so grateful to have them.

I do not have the privilege of having that someone here in the States. But I'm trying to get myself to be that someone to me. Hope you understand what I'm trying to say...haha..

Chinese new year is coming soon. This will be the first year that I will miss the new year. "You never know what you have until you lose it". I finally understand that saying now.

Hope you all have a very happy Chinese New Year!

My good day

It's freezing cold here...but the funny thing is, the sun's still shining and there's just a little snow...i mean, there should be a whole lot blanket of snow if the temperature is -20 Celcius right? I just don't get the weather here...

Days are beginning to get better...I have reached a little milestone in my journey to become a better person...just getting a tad more comfortable in my own skin...i didn't know it can feel so good :-)

You know those days when you felt like good things could never really come your way...but you keep on holding on anyway...and then one day, suddenly u find that things are not so bad after all...i had that day yesterday :-)

I'm getting a bit better in skiing and i'm longing to get a pan so thatI can cook here...