When the mood comes, the photos come

I am bored…i am bored..i am bored…i am so bored!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Somebody please suggest something for me to do…aside from cleaning, washing, watching dramas or animes or movies, playing the sims, trying to beat the boss from FFX, staring into space, staring into my laptop or reading books…

I’ve tried those (albeit a little unwillingly for the cleaning and washing part)..but i’m still bored..

Here are some random pics from my Japan trip:

futons are incredibly comfortable after a long day walking

this is for u, sano V

beautiful sakura…

see, i told you i saw cats hugging..

like owner, like dogs

green tea ice cream, yum yum!

Credit: These photos are courtesy of my sis :)

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What’s next?

I know it’s a bit late to say this now, but..I am back!

I reached Malaysia last Sunday (April 19) at about 8 am from Singapore airport.

 Picture taken at Singapore Airport before we departed ;-(

But I only went out of the airport 2 hours later because I was helping my friend to report her damaged baggage. It took tat long because the girl working behind the counter was taking her own sweet time and was struggling with her English. That was when i realized i'm really back in Malaysia.

Everything was the same at home. Except for the addition of Astro, nothing much has changed. Which is a good thing actually.

And then I went back to my normal routine as well. Sleep. Wake up. Watch drama. Lunch. Drama. Dinner. Drama again. Sleep.

I feel bored. Life is without direction now. What do I do next?

I know what my dreams are but…..how do I reach them?

One bad thing about fulfilling your dreams is having nothing to look forward to next. But I am only 22. All I gotta do is believe that life will get better than it already has.

Which is not easy at all.

Empty Heart

My last nite in Malaysia...i'm so busy packing that i dun even have time to think about it..

but now tat i have some time to breathe...i got a terrible headache...

but still...tonite is important...i'm so excited and yet i'm so scared...i think i'm still not fully aware yet that i will be gone tmw...tis time tmw, i'm going to be at Singapore...wow..

i didn't expect to receive all those well-wishing calls and smses from u guys...don't think u will remember..till tis day, i still cannot believe that i have so many frens tat care about me...thanks, you all^^

and i've been moving around a lot for the past week...met with xiao qi in mid valley, had KFC with seow pei, hanged out with my roomates in TS, and done a whole lot of things with kee li, jason & nan cen all over KL. and of coz, the vacation with my family in cameron. someday, i'll blog about them.

but...i still haven't heard from you..n wat does tat mean?...i guess i already knew..

if only u are here...becoz i wanted to hear from u so so bad...but it's all a dream, isn't it?

if only dreams come true...

i wanted to hold on to those memories but i have to live my life. and starting tmw, i'm going to explore it to the fullest.

so...goodbye, you.

keep smiling...偶尔想想我，好吗？

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the time we spent together /

is like a beautiful dream /

but sooner or later /

we have to wake up /

to reality /

and when it's over /

all that's left /

to remind me of you /

is an empty heart

Saying Goodbye

I am not used to saying goodbyes at all. I don't think anyone is.

These few days have been hard. Initially, I thought I will be ok with the idea...
This IS the moment that I have been longing for ever since I start studying....no more nerve-breaking exams, no more boring classes , no more staying up till 6am to rush never-ending assignments, no more pressures......finally.....free

But then the thought hit me.

Because it also means...

no more staying together with roomates,
no more waking up to Jun Jun, Yiyi, Mei Leng and Wan Jun's voices,
no more holding hands with Jun Jun,
no more late night yum cha at white light mamak,
no more going to Wednesday pasar malam in Nan Cen's car,
no more dinner with my second family,
no more performing arts classes....

I mean, how do you say goodbye to people you have been living, laughing and crying together with for 2 whole years? How do you say goodbye to people you feel so close with that they feel like your family when your real family is away? How do you say goodbye to new found friends who you have spent days and nights with working on the most memorable showcase of your life?
Friends that I would really like to get to know better but there's just not enough time...

How do you say goodbye to those who have made such an impact in your life only to learn that you might never see them again for the rest of your life?


I haven't figure that out yet. And I guess I never will.

T.T